Balikbayan

Here on these hours,
the sun hangs over
the parallel, a spell.
We feel the myth, the distance like a metal case.

My family, the limbs of which, spread
the body of this land.
I'll pour my blood on this place,
to keep you safe, keep you safe.

We'll send it home, balikbayan. We'll send it home, balikbayan.

The heavy freight, it carried
the weight, of a better life.
You separate, your kids get old,
the air gets cold, we feel alone.

Our country, this in between,
the hours hang; we're still not paid.
We'll fold our clothes, and write our notes -
send them home, send them home.

We'll send it home, balikbayan.
We'll send it home, balikbayan.

Movie

Henry: You'll be fine. We'll both be fine Rudy.
Rudy Holt: That's life Henry.
Henry: Yep.
Rudy Holt: You know what life is?
Henry: Life is a horrible little giggle in the midst of a forced death march towards hell.
Rudy Holt: No it isn't.
Henry: An interminable wale of grief...
Rudy Holt: No. Life is a single skip for joy.
Henry: I know.
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Doubt

if you should doubt
my heart
remember this
that i would lie to you
if i believed it was
right to do

if you should think
instead
i would forget
all the lives i said
were not meant for me
and meant for you

that would be the test
i could not forgive
only that
to doubt the only way
that what was true before
is true today

what i have learned
of you
does not assure
you bow before my will
but i believed it then
believe it still
oh, i believed it then
believed in still

Dance

Will you look at me? Take a good look at me and tell me who it is that I am. This old mirror it is broken, there's too much drift in the dam.

It's not the world that's spinning at me
I go from no where to no where searching for the key. There's nothing new under the sun, all that will happen has already begun.

Will you savor this in your mind, this old feeling when your left behind? Will you hold to this as true or will you dance to another tune?

I was watching for a long time as people crossed the street. Some heavy sadness weighed upon me as I sat silent incarce.

Shadows with that same look upon their faces, a child will die that nobody embraces, everything gets tiresome, everything grows old, with each secret revealed, there's another to be told.

Will you savor this in your mind, this old feeling when your left behind? Will you hold to this as true or will you dance to another tune?

Will you look at me? Take a good look at me and tell me who it is that I am.

How does a river need a bed?
Sole dependency
How do you still need her?
Two souls crippling

You are the one that I am as well
As far as I can tell
We are the makers and the breakers
I think that you should know that by now

Draining fiction from our blood.
Pulling music from our notes.
Using all our embellished edges
To make for themselves their own.

I would never take from you
What I'd given back
I would never steal from you
I think you had enough of that

And we
We are the same

When the yelling does subside



I'll come running to your side
Tell you that I'm not afraid
For us to end up like that

I know when I saw your eyes
I knew it was the worst thing
I would need to find her and tell her
All the hurting she put you through.

And we
We are the same

That was another time
Another place
That's not your life
You were another time
Another place
Turned into real life

And we
We are the same

Feelings

Feelings...

What do you know about them ?

Why you prefer work to seeing me ?
Why do you accept to work more and more ?
Why you always refuse to take a single day off ?
Why do you give us so little ?

Why you refused to look for a place with me, when you hate where you live ?

Why you never talk ? Why you never say when something is wrong ?

Why you don't change your passwords, even when I beg you to do it ?

And why do you never tell me what's going on in your head ?
Or what you really want ?

Maybe, oh I'm going to say something not very nice, maybe you should go out of your music a little.
So that you could see things clearly ?

Never let me go

Kathy: I come here and imagine that this is the spot where everything I've lost since my childhood is washed out. I tell myself, if that were true, and I waited long enough then a tiny figure would appear on the horizon across the field and gradually get larger until I'd see it was Tommy. He'd wave. And maybe call. I don't know if the fantasy go beyond that, I can't let it. I remind myself I was lucky to have had any time with him at all. What I'm not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete. Maybe none of us really understand what we've lived through, or feel we've had enough time.

Never let me go

Kathy: It had never occurred to me that our lives, which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I'd known, maybe I'd have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart.
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Ships

“I look to the stars as the waves cover me
It’s a beautiful night to behold
The most beautiful I’ve ever known
Ships in the rain I’ll see you again
Ships in the rain I’ll see you again
Their whistles are blowing
They’re looking for me
Like an orchestra playing as I sink to the deep
But this cold black ocean will know
that this sailor will never come home”

Hot

When the sun is its most bright
Stare into its light
Do not close your eyes

Let it burn into your mind
Then look left, look right
Let it make you blind

Oh, isn't that a fright
Birth, to eternal night
That someone decides each day

When the days run long and late
Darkness brings me pause
While I lie awake

Sleeping's never long enough
Lying in this heat
I forget to breathe

Oh, isn't that the way
Sun hides himself away
Still, it's hot as day

Holy

Holy, holy, holy
There is no other story
Holy, holy, holy
Its madness seeking the story

Hold me, hold me, hold me
Would you like to know me?
In time you fought enough to feel
Your only seeking as I need

For the joy and secrets I have stored
here I lay awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessing follow in count
Its ties that hold your mind and not give up

No patience can contain this
All human joy is precious
And I alone should know this
And everyone should notice

Holy, holy, Holy
There is no other story
It's madness seeking the story
We'll be who we want to be

For the joy and secrets I have stored
Here I lay awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessing follow in count
Its ties that hold your mind and not give up

I will give up
Why would you give up?
I will give up
Why would you give up?

Strangers

Where are you going I don't mind
I've killed my world and I've killed my time
So where do I go what do I see
I see many people coming after me
So where are you going to I don't mind
If I live too long I'm afraid I'll die
So I will follow you wherever you go
If your offered hand is still open to me
Strangers on this road we are on
We are not two we are one
So you've been where I've just come
From the land that brings losers on
So we will share this road we walk
And mind our mouths and beware our talk
'Till peace we find tell you what I'll do
All the things I own I will share with you
If I feel tomorrow like I feel today
We'll take what we want and give the rest away
Strangers on this road we are on
We are not two we are one
Holy man and holy priest
This love of life makes me weak at my knees
And when we get there make your play
'Cos soon I feel you're gonna carry us away
In a promised lie you made us believe
For many men there is so much grief
And my mind is proud but it aches with rage
And if I live too long I'm afraid I'll die
Strangers on this road we are on
We are not two we are one
Strangers on this road we are on
We are not two we are one